mood: still confused :S

yoz...i haf finalli updated...YAY!!! 1st n foremost...mi juz 1 2 announce tt der bean family has just been created...lolx...lame ritez...dere's horny bean [me], retro bean [carissa], doodle bean [kook], dust bean [jeremy], jelly bean [slimie]...i'm not realli sure about sakura's n benjaa's bean species...so ya...tt makes up der bean family...newae...lotsa tings haf happened lately...n it seems tt i'm der cause of all der problems...haix...dunno how cum liddat...n dere's been a short series of btrayal...haix...veri tired of all dis oreadi la...guess i cant realli blame ne1...so mi no choice but 2 blame miself...it's a lesson learnt newae...i dun tink i'll trust ne1 again...except mi personal "advisor" obviously...den oso got alot of tings la...skul sux...blame hu? blame miself 4 choosin dis fuckin screwed up skul n landin miself in dis mess...mi lyfe sux...blame hu? blame miself 4 survivin 14 yrs on earth... mi class sux...blame hu? blame miself 4 not studyin bleedin hard n as a result landin in a bloody fucked up class...it's lyk sumtimes i ask miself y m i born in2 dis world...izit 2 suffer or wad...n rite now...i stuck wif so many problems wich is lyk now chokin mi 2 death r sumting...i might as well juz stop actin tough in skul n juz b mi normal weaklin self la...*sighs*...so ppl...if ya 1 2 provoke mi...u betta wait till i cheer up...or u will totally gettit frm mi...n der injuries will b doubly as painful as der pinches sweex2 got last yr...erm well...since lotsa ppl kno oreadi...i might as well tell u ppl out dere la...i dun lyk "ly" nemore...so i'm kinda free frm sum burden...kk...der rest of der details will b posted up here when i feel betta...cos i dun feel lyk mentionin names rite now...so ya...i might as well stop typin 4 now...in case i blurt sum tings i shudn't sae...buaix 4 now...