pondering: are you really my friend or foe?

well, today was kind of fine. realised that 3d was much cooler and better than my previous class 2a. the people were more friendly and outgoing, and it's like competition isn't so intense to the extent that 'if you win me, we're enemies, so there.' i duno la, it's like people in my class don't seem that scheming as compared to 2a. I know people like hui fang, en ting...etc are a bunch of really caring people la, but i mean that's the minority, so yeah. how should i put it? class 2a really has lots of backstabbers and really smug people. they think they're so great that their heads swell up like a big hot air balloon and i got the temptation to burst that bleedin balloon. ERGH! i mean it's like so what if your results are good? if your bloody character sucks, you're just a piece of fucking shit, understand? GRRRR!!!
hmm, my former friends are drifting further apart from me. or at least that's what it seems to be. oh well, can't blame them. i just find that some of them starting to get on my nerves. guess they've become more irritating and they act as if they're so fucking popular. sighs, why do people change? can someone please do an explanatory text on this???

anyways, i got a pathetic mark for chinese test, especially when i cheated. i got a mere 38.5/50. which is pathetically miserable. sighs. i failed my stinking a math too. maths suck. there's an upcoming e math test next tuesday. i'm so gonna die of stress... what the fuck.

bloody liu xin wasn't so bitchy today. i wouldn't say she wasn't bitchy at all, she was slightly less bitchier. haha, that's because our group scored some points, thanks to charmaine and her genius answer which i didn't understand. well actually, i wasn't listening to her answer, that's why.
went to holland village for lunch and also to get elis her present. went to 'subway' with charmaine, grace and cheryl, where i bought this 6-inch turkey and ham honey oat bun for $4.80. then went to action city to get elis's present. didn't expect it to b so cheap.. lol...

so anyway we made it back somewhat in time for cca--journalism. and there i met someone who i didn't want to see after a real hectic rush back from holland village. i mean starting from this year, he/she [i will not reveal the gender] has become super bossy la, and is already getting on my bleeding nerves. he/she thinks he/she is so great that he/she is in the fucking authority to boss me around, which i obviously don't like. really wanted to tell him/her to 'fuck off, leave me alone, and stop throwing your fucking weight around, you fucking motherfucker' -anger meter shoots up to boiling point- but obviously i didn't say that, it would be too crude. -anger meter results are now plotted on graph and a plateau is formed-

o man, end of speech. hopefully my anger would have disappeared by tomorow, i hope. if not, i'll try my best not to flare up despite whatever unfavourable situations i may be in. luckily i've found another pinchbag [chye aik]. haha, the poor guy. shall stop here. ciao...